It’s hard to write when you have so much to tell and yet everything is hazy, and nothing comes out and everything feels like garbage.
Books I have been reading:
the Love Hypothesis by Ali Hazelwood:
It’s a fine two to three day read, the trope is the old one, I think it’s more befitting to the newer generation, or at least it’s more real, I am glad the author put internal monologues, I am hoping the writing style gets refined over time and the sciencey details flows more naturally, and I am not a seasoned critic. That’s how I feel about the book, I would also completely be okay living my life without ever having read it? as in it didn’t make a tangible difference in how I view the world, it’s just good gossip in the expected range of possibilities.
Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes:
Now this one hurts, the beginning and the end, the middle is one is a good story, and it does expand your perspective of the worldview, I like analogy of standing on the elevator of intelligence and passing people above and below. The story is about a thirty something year old guy who is not so smart, he is exceptionally motivated to be smart so that his friends will like him more. And going through a scientific experiment to be smart and then losing it. It’s something.
Plato’s Phaedo:
The scene is set right before Socrates’ day of execution and how his friends have come to greet him and their dialogues. The thing I hate the most is the indignation towards women, when his wife says, you will be seeing your friends for the last time, Plato records it as, something only a woman would say. Ofc, obviously because all the philosopher dumbshites might not notice or observe and forget. For some reason, it just flipped me off.
Anyway, the discourse itself is interesting, Socrates makes the point that philosophy is for the soul and dying is okay, as body only obstructs and obfuscates observations. But at the same he argues, the soul of our body is not ours take, because we are the prisoners of God, and how would we feel if one of our subordinates, again treat them as you own them and they have no rights, how would you feel if something you owned decided to die or cause itself suffering which you didn’t ordain?
God: “my minions”
Human: “what if I just die? what’s point of life?”
God: “I am gonna make Minion #12478953 go through one more heartbreak, muahhaha”
Human: “should I consider living? maybe the investment my family made?”
stands on the chair, tying the knot to the fan
God: “..and then make Minion #125645489 meet Minion #12478953”
Human: “ah shit, I forgot to write a note, now I have already tied the noose though”
Beep Beep, Minion #12478953 is no longer there in the LiveDatabase.
God: “AAAAAAHHH I am done being God, nothing ever goes according to plan!”
It’s a fun read. The above excerpt is not from the book.
The Fruits of the Earth by André Gide:
Now this is quite a different kind of book, I wonder if a bigger essence is getting lost in translation but as is mentioned in the prologue, Nathaniel, as soon as you are done reading, throw the book away and go eat the fruits of the earth. It made me laugh, cry and introspect at the same time. It has the essence of enjoying life, of how cool fresh air feels good when you have been sick for a while and your faculties slow down to appreciate life. And looking at the sky calms us down and we let go of anger and stronger emotions.
P.S. Nathaniel is you.
Life Updates:
I have started gym, I have mixed feelings about it.
I also kinda feel sad about not writing the blogs and getting them out monthly.
So those are two months of my undocumented life, I think there were “note”-worthy things.
Think those were harder months, even number, give older version of you the respect of what they did was right and stop questioning, right right, so yes hard months, hence no writing blogs, it’s okay.
Hoping my Obsidian would have caught something, I setup an almost functional sync for my personal stuff from phone to laptop, yayy.
Cool stuff I learned:
if the requests are taking a long time to process coz of RTT (round trip time) coz of some cells location and co-location, kill the cell, it feels wrong and weird, and as if Caesar saying “Et tu Brutus?” but cell draining is regular practice to mitigate, learned about some cool SRE stuff, TMR, triage, mitigate, resolve. I think it’s good to implement this and also do write postmortem reports for life incidents.
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Postmortem Report template:
– Excecutive Summary
– Background
– What went well?
– What could have gone better?
– What were you lucky?
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no blaming and shaming, name tagging only as a fact and later using the role in further conversations, traffic-ops reached out people-ops etc etc.
happy pride,
cheers,
signing off,
until next month,
hopefully,
calra
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